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Showing posts with label Depression. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Depression. Show all posts

Saturday, October 18, 2014

Dale The Angry Basketball Player

Last Summer I shot this film with a small crew on a couple of summer days. It's the story of this guy Dale who lost his brother in a tragic accident which has driven a wedge between Dale and his parents who blame him. He also blames himself and often vents by obsessive  bouts of cleaning and working out. He also gets really pissed of when his girlfriend calls and asks him about his appointments.  It's funny that he and I have the same name. Ultimately Dale and his Father meet after years of avoiding each other. Sadly I hurt my right leg in an undisclosed basketball accident at 4:15pm Dec. 14 2013 so the footage in the film is the last time I was able to run and jump like a young man. Now I walk like an old groundskeeper. I hope you enjoy the film which was written and Directed by Max Milner who has sent me a script for a romantic dramady yes dramady....I know it's crazy right? Joshua Lustig was the director of photography. Assistant Director David Law who has a style all his own was always quick with a joke to keep things loose. An entire bathroom was destroyed in the making of this film. Enjoy.  


 

Monday, December 3, 2012

A Poem That Sucks

To do all you should have when you could
To understand the misunderstood
To know that all was truly good
Laughing in the neighborhood
To harbor guilt and fear and hate
Three jobs you hate your always late
A stack of bills laid on your plate 
Maybe she'll pay for the date?
To be so broke but never broken
Truer words were never spoken
Hush old man it's not an omen
One door will close and one will open
To charge and race for cheers and gifts
So hard we  chase for years it lives
A sacrifice you have to give
In order to be positive
To know you never second guessed
To try your best and never rest
It's like your on an endless quest
But you've been here before

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Every Rose Has It's Thorn

I was at the Bulls Game when Derek Rose tore his ACL. I saw it happen (from the upper deck) I cannot express how heartbroken I am for him. I think people that take pro sports to seriously are losers but I feel that something like this transcends sports drama. This guy is so humble and like able. How could this happen? I remember that in the stands we all thought that he wasn't hurt all that bad and we all started chanting "MVP, MVP, MVP" Hoping for him to get up and let us know he was okay. He never did. Later in the day I was talking with a friend who was watching on tv and said that rose appeared to know immediately that he was severely injured. Then I thought about how when everyone was chanting "MVP" Derek already knew he was done. How bad he must have felt. I feel like it was the equivalent of seeing Mufasa get killed or watching the one ewok try to wake up the other one who died during the battle at the end of "Return of the Jedi" Then today I saw that jackass at Nike was making fun of Roses injury. Have you no decency. The nicest guy in the league, never done anything wrong to anyone and your gonna take a cheap shot at him because he didn't endorse your company's shoes? What an ass. I'd like to bust his knee and then see how funny he thinks it is. Derek Rose kind of reminds me of Chicago and all its hard working citizens. I know he will be back but I just bummed that this happened to him.  I still feel that the Bulls still have a shot at the title but its going to be a tough battle to win without the MVP. Hang in there Derek we are all pulling for you.


Dale Fanella

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Blogging Depression

No Pants, No Problem
Hey guys. My friend Greg got on my case about not putting up any new posts for awhile, sorry about that. I was writing a lot in January and had my Google AdSense going strong earning a little money here and there for my humble blog but then it happened. The dark side of the force tempted me and I lost my innocence in a evil plot of greed and corruption. Needless to say my Google AdSense account has since been disabled to do fraudulent clicking by a number of parties. 

To whom it may concern....I'm Sorry. I just owe so much money to Sally May and the Government for my foolish College Education. I wanted to make some extra money and my friends and family were all very quick to try to help my new enterprise. I feel like AnakinSkywalker at the end of "Revenge of the Sith" or Seth at the end of "Boiler Room"  Until now I have been unable to motivate myself to put up anything new in the blogging department. I'm glad that whole period of grieving is over and now I'm ready to get back on the grind. It's good to be back. Greg if your reading, thanks for the motivation it means a lot. You can be certain that I will be posting more often in the month of March. 

Dale "The Mad Blogger" aka "The Blogger formerly known as Depressed"

Monday, November 21, 2011

The Week or the Strong who got it going on?



Feel so far from my peak
This is the hardest week

Even though i'm hungry 
I never wanna eat 

Even though im tired
I hardly ever  sleep

I feel incomplete
Like I cant compete

I wanna return my problems 
But I don't have a reciept

I stand six feet tall
Until I'm  six feet deep

I accept life's losses 
Except defeat

Seven days without strength
Will make one weak.  

Dale Fanella

Monday, November 14, 2011